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Saturday, May 15, 2010

100th post

Why yes this is my 100th post, so on that note YAY!

Today i stood on my scale horrified. This is the first time I've weighed myself in 2 days maybe? I weigh a hippo-size of 116. That is my highest weight. Words cannot describe how i felt when i saw that number. June 1st is in 17 days. That means i would have to lose 6.8 lbs EVERY DAY to get to my goal weight. I just can't do it. I will try, but right now i only have one mood.


I love you all, you beautiful girls.
~Riki Ana
It's good to be beautiful.
It's good to feel beautiful.
Ana is my life. Ana is my soul.
It is what I choose for me,not what I choose for you.
As I shed my shell and emerge

from my cocoon, I do so
knowing who I am,
and knowing what I do....


  1. Hmm, seems like you've got a problem :/
    But don't let this get to you, all you have to do is liquid fast and do excersize a lot for the next couple of weeks. You could make a new temporary goal weight of 108 and focus on loosing an equal amount every 3 or 4 2lbs or something.

    Your not a failure! This is simpily a minor setback. I wish you lots of luck, we are all here for you :)

    Love Sun-lit~ xxx

  2. hey don't kid yourself. you're not defeated until you quit&i know you're not going to quit. i agree, a temporary goal weight would be a good idea. something doable. whatever works for you. chin up, darling. you can do this.