OMG Kat's back. Yes, the same Kat from the blog we all loved. Quest for perfection. www.katproanaquest.blogspot.com She needs us to get her name back out there again. Be warned, her first post is what happened in the time she was gone. You'll see.
When i checked my email and saw that ^^^ i literally almost cried. Then after i read the first post i did cry. No a lot though. But wow. i don't really understand why, maybe it's like seeing a relative after a really long time. It was tears of joy.
In other news. I love you guys, i got up at 5:30 AM to post. so this post may sound tired.
I do NOT want to talk about the last two days. But in my promise to ALWAYS tell what happened i will.
Monday: binged. Badly.
Tuesday: *promised i'd do better* -LIE.
Wednesday: hate myself to the point of yelling at the mirror.
Today I'm going to be HARD restricting. It's only 2 more days of April. FUCK Then 1 month until summer. Double FUCK.
So these next two days aren't going to be fun. Then the 31 days of May are going to be hell. But you know what, i'm at the point where i want to lock myself in a room without food for the next 33 days. I'm toying around with the idea in my mind. If only a 33 day fast was possible. For me. *le sigh*
www.evacanfly.blogspot.com great fasting info. Go to the very beginning of her blog. She did a 30 day juice fast right ater a 2 or 3 day water fast.
So i think after these 2 days of hard restricting i'll try to fast for as long as possible. Then i'll hard restrict, then fast. get the pattern?
I pray i can do it.
Last night i was scared. I don't want to go to the beach. Especially in a bikini. But i really want to. I just need the body for it first. I wish i didn't procrastinate so much during the year.
well, that's all i have for now.
It's now 6:00 am.
And i love you!!!