Today, i feel much more, i don't know how to describe it....maybe ready for full time ana i suppose.
I'm going to the mall today, MY FAVORITE PLACE. I can get some clothes, and see some fatties and skinnies for thinspo. Yay! Then i don't have to eat there but i'm a little worried about after because we are going to my dad's girlfriends house and she feeds us usually but i can't refuse it because i don't want to effe-up his relationship. grrr...*sigh*
Hopefully i can just "eat" at the mall.
Anyway i feel so loved by you guys! The comments from the last post were so encouraging!!!! <3
Thank you all :)
I haven't checked my weight yet today, somewhere around 114-116. Grr back to fucking square one. Damn it. I hate yo-yoing. bleh.
But i'm going to pretend i'm a skinny little bitch today, to keep my head up and refuse food like i'm the boss. Then when i get into the dressing room and can't fit the dress over my head like last time. Grr Let's hope i do good.
Oh lovely ana, let me refuse the temptations that are laid out before me!
I'll proably be watching jersey shore till it's time to go. Man i love that show. Maybe cuz i'm from Jersey? lol. Even though only 1 of them are even from Jersey!!!! whatever, funny to watch. :)
LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!