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Saturday, July 3, 2010

Only me.


Why might you ask, well first I've been doing great in the weight department 113. But i can good bye to that now.

Why might you ask??

Well, yesterday i was in a lot of pain. My ear was throbbing. It was BAD. I got no sleep last night because of it and now this morning i was going to go to the doctor to get it checked out. I stood up and went to go change. Suddenly my ear felt a lot better. But it felt very wet, like water was dripping out of it. I take two finger and went to wipe it off and my fingers had blood on them.


Turns out my ear pain was actually a massive infection that created pressure and cause my ear-drum to rupture.

Really? COME ON! Tomorrow is my b-day and guess where I'm going? To the beach. Guess what? I can't get my ear wet! That also means no showers!!

ugh. Now I have a napkin taped to my ear to catch the blood that's been draining out of me since 8 am. It's now 3:54 pm.

Also i can't hear out of it. But thank god, I'll regain it once it starts to heal.

But at least when it ruptured all the pressure went away. So not a lot of pain anymore.

This may be TMI but I'm saying it anyway, the most uncomfortable part of it is that i can feel the blood dripping out my ear *shutter*

Oh yea, i have to take the mediation they put me on with food. fuck. So i guess I'm stuck holding off Ana until my ear is better :(

In other, happier, news. I'm glad to see people are starting to find this blog again after i changed it from riskyriki.

Well, that's all i got for now.
I'm going to go take a nap.
~Riki Ana
Starve on


  1. I really hope you regain your hearing. I having hearing aids. It is something I never imagined. I didn't grow up with it all my them at 18. I have a friend who lost her hearing from a really bad ear infection last year. Stay strong. I'm here if you need me.

  2. Aww sweetie I feel your pain I get a perfirated ear drum once a year at least. It hurts like a bitch I know, you should be fine though my hearing never got lost from it and I've had both rupture at the same time. Tylenol with codine my dear it makes everything alll better lol. Stay strong lovely <3

  3. Wow, I am soooo sorry! That sucks ass :( I hope it gets better soon! I think it's smart to eat a little more right now, so you can heal. Good luck!!