Bleh, i don't really want to describe what happened yesterday so i'll give you the gist of it.
-i ate :(
-i didn't sleep over :(
-it was hot as hell in my house :(
-But i had awesome dreams :D
Anyway my weight is...... 110.5
FUCK.
~*~
Shh, do you hear that?
Listen closely
....
There it was again!
Oh my god it's coming closer!
it's, it's
A FAST!!!!
~*~
Why yes, i did waste a couple seconds of your life making you read that introduction.
So yep, going to fast today. I don't really care at this point if it's going to suck.
It's already April 9th. What the hell! Spring break is over in 2 days. and I'm still at a fucking fat ass weight. FUCK.
Any of you gorgeous skinnies want to join? It's today and possibly tomorrow if my mom decides not to ruin my fasting plans.
~*~
Sorry for the shitty post. i litterly JUST woke up. I like getting the fast out there early so you read it before your breakfast or something.
Anyway,
I love you all<3
Ana luv to you
Starve on
Think Thin
Stay Strong
Love,
~Riki Ana!
xoxoxox
Friday, April 9, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
The sun will always shine, no matter what you did yesterday.
that's how i feel -_-
Ok recap of yesterday.
I didn't eat the entire day like i wanted too, then around 7pm i went to my dad's house. I was already anxious because i don't usually eat past seven. They put the food in the oven and we ate around 7:30. I took the same amount of food as everyone else. :( I could have had less but earlier in the day while i went to go through something out, she saw my form walking away, and said "Riki your so skinny! Stop being skinny!" She joked. She is also on a diet. She is quite slim. But anyway, i wanted to seem like a freaky fast metabolism person, so i ate. A piece of bread with cheese. Steak-very, very red steak. Potatoes, and Corn-spicy "southwest" style corn, spicy food boost the metabolism. Then after the meal I was handed a bowl-3 scoops of rocky road ice cream with sprinkles. YUM, just saying. So that was my day.
Want to know my weight?
It's why i feel like -_-
It's not good, not bad.
108
So no change.
Eh, better than a gain.
~*~
Today, since i know if i were to go straight back to fasting today it would suck, I'm going to do a sub-100 day. Mainly because i want my Salad with salsa. So that would be 40 cals. Or if i had a big enough craving and had two salads it still would only be 80.
But, alas, there always has to be a problem. Tonight, i might go to a friend's house for a sleep over. And she has a sweet tooth. So there would be lot's of treats there. Hopefully, before i go i can walk down to the gas station and get a liter water bottle, and put a crystal light packet. That will probably hold me over. Then i can use the "Oh I'm going to eat there mom." then the "Oh sorry, i ate at home." excuse.
~*~
Want to know something that freaks me out? After a binge, those days were your thinning out to go back to fasting and such, when you don't have to use the bathroom at all, since your barely eating. And the food is still inside of you! Sitting in your stomach, refusing to digest, trapped inside your body. *shutter* When i think of that i cringe, i just hate knowing that it's, stuck in there.
I hope i didn't give you that worry also....
~*~
Anyway that's all for now.
Ana luv to you.
Love,
~Riki Ana
P.s. I love your comments! You guys are sooooo sweet!
Ok recap of yesterday.
I didn't eat the entire day like i wanted too, then around 7pm i went to my dad's house. I was already anxious because i don't usually eat past seven. They put the food in the oven and we ate around 7:30. I took the same amount of food as everyone else. :( I could have had less but earlier in the day while i went to go through something out, she saw my form walking away, and said "Riki your so skinny! Stop being skinny!" She joked. She is also on a diet. She is quite slim. But anyway, i wanted to seem like a freaky fast metabolism person, so i ate. A piece of bread with cheese. Steak-very, very red steak. Potatoes, and Corn-spicy "southwest" style corn, spicy food boost the metabolism. Then after the meal I was handed a bowl-3 scoops of rocky road ice cream with sprinkles. YUM, just saying. So that was my day.
Want to know my weight?
It's why i feel like -_-
It's not good, not bad.
108
So no change.
Eh, better than a gain.
~*~
Today, since i know if i were to go straight back to fasting today it would suck, I'm going to do a sub-100 day. Mainly because i want my Salad with salsa. So that would be 40 cals. Or if i had a big enough craving and had two salads it still would only be 80.
But, alas, there always has to be a problem. Tonight, i might go to a friend's house for a sleep over. And she has a sweet tooth. So there would be lot's of treats there. Hopefully, before i go i can walk down to the gas station and get a liter water bottle, and put a crystal light packet. That will probably hold me over. Then i can use the "Oh I'm going to eat there mom." then the "Oh sorry, i ate at home." excuse.
~*~
Want to know something that freaks me out? After a binge, those days were your thinning out to go back to fasting and such, when you don't have to use the bathroom at all, since your barely eating. And the food is still inside of you! Sitting in your stomach, refusing to digest, trapped inside your body. *shutter* When i think of that i cringe, i just hate knowing that it's, stuck in there.
I hope i didn't give you that worry also....
~*~
Anyway that's all for now.
Ana luv to you.
Love,
~Riki Ana
P.s. I love your comments! You guys are sooooo sweet!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
I did it!
Yay! Fast completed. Woo-hoo! My weight dropped two pounds, making me 108...again. Well, at least it's not 108.5
I completed the fast with.....*doing math in my head*...........*This might take a while*.......................*i told you it would*............ 45 calories.
I think.
Yesterday all i had was water, a diet Snapple, a coke zero, and a vitamin water.
Today, i was planning on fasting again. Since yesterday went so smoothly. But then i remembered that today I'm supposed to hang out with my dad. He's going to take me on a motorcycle ride, and to taco bell. Damn, and here the ONE time i actually WANT to fast. Well, i can always fast all day, get the 150 cal-Fresco taco, Then fast the rest of the day. The taco might even be a metabolism booster.
Want to know what i was craving yesterday. A salad. I've never craved salad in my ENTIRE LIFE. But oh, i wanted 2 cups of fresh express salad with snap peas, and carrots, with onion With 2 tablespoons of salsa on on. mmmmmmmmmm. That would total to be......40 cals. Yummy.
Wouldn't that be a feast for a king?
That also reminds me i need to buy measuring cups/ measuring spoons. Right now all i have left is a plastic measuring cup for liquids-up to 2 cups. And a 1/4 dry measuring cup. Sure, i can do basic measurements with the 1/4 but I'm lazy. Oh, the measuring spoons are a must. How am i going to measure the salsa for my salad?
~*~
Anyway, I love you guys! Your all so supportive! It shocks me that I'm so close to you. I'm don't trust people easily, and know from reading your blogs and talking to some of you through email, I'm almost closer to you than my some of my friends!
Anyway, i hope i still lose weight even if i eat the taco. I hope I'm Thinner tomorrow than i am today.
Love,
~Riki Ana
xoxoxo
I completed the fast with.....*doing math in my head*...........*This might take a while*.......................*i told you it would*............ 45 calories.
I think.
Yesterday all i had was water, a diet Snapple, a coke zero, and a vitamin water.
Today, i was planning on fasting again. Since yesterday went so smoothly. But then i remembered that today I'm supposed to hang out with my dad. He's going to take me on a motorcycle ride, and to taco bell. Damn, and here the ONE time i actually WANT to fast. Well, i can always fast all day, get the 150 cal-Fresco taco, Then fast the rest of the day. The taco might even be a metabolism booster.
Want to know what i was craving yesterday. A salad. I've never craved salad in my ENTIRE LIFE. But oh, i wanted 2 cups of fresh express salad with snap peas, and carrots, with onion With 2 tablespoons of salsa on on. mmmmmmmmmm. That would total to be......40 cals. Yummy.
Wouldn't that be a feast for a king?
That also reminds me i need to buy measuring cups/ measuring spoons. Right now all i have left is a plastic measuring cup for liquids-up to 2 cups. And a 1/4 dry measuring cup. Sure, i can do basic measurements with the 1/4 but I'm lazy. Oh, the measuring spoons are a must. How am i going to measure the salsa for my salad?
~*~
Anyway, I love you guys! Your all so supportive! It shocks me that I'm so close to you. I'm don't trust people easily, and know from reading your blogs and talking to some of you through email, I'm almost closer to you than my some of my friends!
Anyway, i hope i still lose weight even if i eat the taco. I hope I'm Thinner tomorrow than i am today.
Love,
~Riki Ana
xoxoxo
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Give me one reason to be fat, i'll give you a thousand and one to be thin.
I'm soooooo sorry girls/guys. I fucked up. My mom forced me to eat. I should have sneaked around it. FUCK. Oh did it end there....NO.
Today, i'm going to hang out with a friend. This particular friend, whenever we hang out, we just walk around town, for hours. So it's a great workout.
I've decided that today is my fasting day. I'm so sorry to those girls/guys who actually tried the fast yesterday. :(
I'm so ready this time around though. For the past few days, i feel like i didn't have the drive to actually starve. But i was trying to re-inspire myself, and i saw this post from http://www.starvingtobeperfect.blogspot.com/
"If you want to lose weight, you have to work really fucking hard for it. Put down the candy. Don't go to the vending machine. Eat half or a quarter of what you normally would. And for Christ's sake, EXERCISE! That means at least 30 minutes of cardio!
Otherwise, it ain't gonna happen.
It just won't.There's no magic to it. You can decrease your caloric intake and burn more calories and then lose weight. There isn't any other way around it.
Yes, you will feel hungry. No, you won't die from that feeling. Drink some water, suck it up and maybe this summer you won't have to suck in your fat stomach. "
When i saw this, i felt like i actually needed to put in some work, "stop being such a lazy cunt"-my bro, and get my ass in gear if i want to lose weight.
I hope her words have also thinspired you also.
~*~
Yesterday i was on the couch and my shirt rode up to show my belly. My brother walked over and poked it. "squishy belly" he said. Then he proceeded to lift up his shirt and show me his 6 pack. Yea because i, the 14 year old, have a gym membership and go everyday to get said 6 pack. "Yours so bloated, you know guys hate soft bellies. It's disgusting." Then walked away.
Now i'm not trying to bash my bro, i love him, but he gives me great motivation. Who the hell wants a squishy belly?!?!?
~*~
I pinky-promise not to fail today's fast. (I take pinky-promises VERY seriously.)
Love,
~Riki Ana
Today, i'm going to hang out with a friend. This particular friend, whenever we hang out, we just walk around town, for hours. So it's a great workout.
I've decided that today is my fasting day. I'm so sorry to those girls/guys who actually tried the fast yesterday. :(
I'm so ready this time around though. For the past few days, i feel like i didn't have the drive to actually starve. But i was trying to re-inspire myself, and i saw this post from http://www.starvingtobeperfect.blogspot.com/
"If you want to lose weight, you have to work really fucking hard for it. Put down the candy. Don't go to the vending machine. Eat half or a quarter of what you normally would. And for Christ's sake, EXERCISE! That means at least 30 minutes of cardio!
Otherwise, it ain't gonna happen.
It just won't.There's no magic to it. You can decrease your caloric intake and burn more calories and then lose weight. There isn't any other way around it.
Yes, you will feel hungry. No, you won't die from that feeling. Drink some water, suck it up and maybe this summer you won't have to suck in your fat stomach. "
When i saw this, i felt like i actually needed to put in some work, "stop being such a lazy cunt"-my bro, and get my ass in gear if i want to lose weight.
I hope her words have also thinspired you also.
~*~
Yesterday i was on the couch and my shirt rode up to show my belly. My brother walked over and poked it. "squishy belly" he said. Then he proceeded to lift up his shirt and show me his 6 pack. Yea because i, the 14 year old, have a gym membership and go everyday to get said 6 pack. "Yours so bloated, you know guys hate soft bellies. It's disgusting." Then walked away.
Now i'm not trying to bash my bro, i love him, but he gives me great motivation. Who the hell wants a squishy belly?!?!?
~*~
I pinky-promise not to fail today's fast. (I take pinky-promises VERY seriously.)
Love,
~Riki Ana
xoxoxo
Monday, April 5, 2010
Ok calm down. Let's fast.
Damn.
109.5, FUCK MY LIFE!
Ok to tell you the truth, i didn't exactly stick to not eating yesterday. But let's put that under metabolism boosting meals.....
~*~
Anyway, to get rid of these nasty 2 pounds that slithered their way on to my body, I'm going to fast today.
Today I'm probably not going to be doing much. It's nice out again so i might go for a couple walk during the day....
Spring break is like a mini summer, you just sit in your house watching your TV, or go to your friend's house, and watch TV. Man, I'm so badass. ;)
Anyone want to fast today? It's a liquid fast so drink whatever, coffee, tea, juice, lemonade. But no Slurpee's, soups, or smoothies.
Maybe i'll post thinspo later, you know, if my fast paced life doesn't get in the way. :)
Love,
~Riki Ana
109.5, FUCK MY LIFE!
Ok to tell you the truth, i didn't exactly stick to not eating yesterday. But let's put that under metabolism boosting meals.....
~*~
Anyway, to get rid of these nasty 2 pounds that slithered their way on to my body, I'm going to fast today.
Today I'm probably not going to be doing much. It's nice out again so i might go for a couple walk during the day....
Spring break is like a mini summer, you just sit in your house watching your TV, or go to your friend's house, and watch TV. Man, I'm so badass. ;)
Anyone want to fast today? It's a liquid fast so drink whatever, coffee, tea, juice, lemonade. But no Slurpee's, soups, or smoothies.
Maybe i'll post thinspo later, you know, if my fast paced life doesn't get in the way. :)
Love,
~Riki Ana
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Happy easter!
107.5 lbs. Holy shit, i lost a pound. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAY!
Today is Easter so i'll have to be on the look out for staying away from food.
I'm so happy i'm back down to 107.5!
But i don't really feel like i deserve it, Since yesterday, really i ate like a pig, but i was shopping with my mom, and with her she rushes so your almost running though out the store, then she's like HAVE DINNER! i was like ok. So i ate then went to bed. Bad move. I need to always not be still after eating for like 2hrs. or else it sits on my stomach, which it did last night. Ugggh. So i woke up like 11:30ish then i felt my stomach lurch, and me running to the bathroom puking. Great.
So maybe that's how i lost a pound?
What ever, a pound lost is still a pound lost.
I hope you all are doing good! Stay away from Easter candy and treats!
Love,
~Riki Ana!
Today is Easter so i'll have to be on the look out for staying away from food.
I'm so happy i'm back down to 107.5!
But i don't really feel like i deserve it, Since yesterday, really i ate like a pig, but i was shopping with my mom, and with her she rushes so your almost running though out the store, then she's like HAVE DINNER! i was like ok. So i ate then went to bed. Bad move. I need to always not be still after eating for like 2hrs. or else it sits on my stomach, which it did last night. Ugggh. So i woke up like 11:30ish then i felt my stomach lurch, and me running to the bathroom puking. Great.
So maybe that's how i lost a pound?
What ever, a pound lost is still a pound lost.
I hope you all are doing good! Stay away from Easter candy and treats!
Love,
~Riki Ana!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
....i missed you
I missed you guys! Sorry i haven't been able to post, my teachers decided to be butt heads and give me a thousand tests right before spring break started. But now i can finally, RELAX! My weight is :( 108.5
Not bad, but not where i wanted to be right now.
Oh well, i have all this week to get back in the game, before school starts again.
Can i ask a question though? WHY DOES EVERY HOLIDAY INVOLVE FOOD! Gahh Now easter is tomorrow, and first i'm going to a party where, what else?, candy is going to be by the bucket load. Then after the party i'm going to my aunts for dinner, a big ass family dinner full of food, yummy food.......
.............
Ok i'm back.
I'll have my liter water bottle possible a Crystal light package inside to help curb my cravings and i'll be set. By the end of spring break i want to be at 102. 6lbs. Can i do it? Let's find out!
~*~
Thank god spring is here! I can finally go for walks without dying of frost bite. It's 75 during the day here usually. Ahhh warm weather! But you know what that means... *gulp* summer.
Oh yea, this summer i'm getting my belly button pierced too. So that means FLAT TUMMY IS NEEDED! Who wants a muffin top when all the attention is going to be on your belly!
That's all for now!
Love,
~Riki Ana!
Not bad, but not where i wanted to be right now.
Oh well, i have all this week to get back in the game, before school starts again.
Can i ask a question though? WHY DOES EVERY HOLIDAY INVOLVE FOOD! Gahh Now easter is tomorrow, and first i'm going to a party where, what else?, candy is going to be by the bucket load. Then after the party i'm going to my aunts for dinner, a big ass family dinner full of food, yummy food.......
.............
Ok i'm back.
I'll have my liter water bottle possible a Crystal light package inside to help curb my cravings and i'll be set. By the end of spring break i want to be at 102. 6lbs. Can i do it? Let's find out!
~*~
Thank god spring is here! I can finally go for walks without dying of frost bite. It's 75 during the day here usually. Ahhh warm weather! But you know what that means... *gulp* summer.
Oh yea, this summer i'm getting my belly button pierced too. So that means FLAT TUMMY IS NEEDED! Who wants a muffin top when all the attention is going to be on your belly!
That's all for now!
Love,
~Riki Ana!
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