2nd post please read Sorryy first!!!

Hey everyone. Please read Sorryy first if you have not.

Thanks.
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Anyway, let's hear about my weight shall we?

Dum dum dum!!!!!!!!

107lbs.

It would have been lighter, tho i'm not complaining, if i weren't have had a small binge yesterday. You see, i could have easily gone with out food. But today i'm going to hang out with my dad. Therefore we are going to be eating. But if i were to have fasted yesterday i would have not have eaten for 4 days, making my metabolism very s.l.o.w. And it wouldn't have taken the greasy food my dad is sure to give me very kindly. So i was worrying about whether to eat and jump start it last night. I decided to. I ate a granola bar. But i was happy with that so i had a few other things. :(

I felt so bad about it afterwords. I actually cried, like not full on tears but my eyes were watering. That has never happened after a binge before. I guess because now i'm so dedicated to you guys, and myself i don't want to fail.

Anyway i was expecting worse on the scale, but 107 is good enough for me! Today i ate a granola bar so that 100 cals. I don't really mind it though, i'm going to try to not eat today, but sooner or later my dad is going to force me. :( Maybe i can still be a little sick from the week. *cough cough* ;)

Now i'm in a bad mood. Well, not really bad but sad-ish. I feel bad i gave you guys wrong info from the tips and tricks. I feel like i lost my trust from you. :( I should have paid attention to what they said before i posted them. Me sorry.
I don't want my blog to encourage "wannarexics" So here is my warning,
If you are wannarexic please leave my blog, you will not be tolerated. Anorexia is a mental illness, not a game.

There you go. Damn i'm still sad. :(

Love,
~Riki Ana
Please forgive me for the Tips/Tricks post.

Sorryy

I want to apologize for what happened over the whole "Tips and Tricks." As you know they aren't mine and i got got them from the website i found. You guys have told me that these are for "wanarexics" and therefore i'm sorry about that.

Anonymous said...
I'm sorry but I just had to comment on this...you mentioned at the start where you got these tips so you're not to blame for the inaccuracies if that's any consolation.

Firstly, Anorexia is not a disease or a way or life. It's a mental illness...with the highest fatality rate of any psychological disorder.

Secondly some of these tips are ridiculous, being cold causes your body to build up MORE fat to keep it warm not loose weight! And I've never heard of laxatives making you gain weight! Granted they don't help you loose healthy weight but that's a different story. Infact, as someone who has suffered severe anorexia for a long time and abused laxatives I know they actually cause you to loose muscle over long periods of time. That's bad.Have you any idea how hard it is to fake recovery and continue loosing weight without people noticing if you are an outpatient anyway? Unless some sees me eat I haven't eaten and therefore no one trusts me.

Diet pills and caffine pills are dangerous too, especially with lots of exercise - they can cause you to develop epilepsy. And why are you trying to put yourself off food? Most anorexics already hate food, they don't need the help!L

ook, I'm not against you Pro-Ana folk...I'll support anyone to get where they want to but please at least acknowledge that this is a serious illness and if you're gonna post tips at least make sure the facts are right.Take care, I hope you get to where ever you want to be without hurting yourself or anyone else too much - you don't deserve to get hurt by this illness. xx

Charlie said...
I am actually joined on that site, and honestly, those "tips" are just a way for wannarexics to "get anorexia".While Anonymous is stupid saying that most anorexics hate food (they don't hate food, they hate calories/fat and their bodies, and anorexia as well as other eating disorders are often signs of another underlying problem. Get it right, Anon.), those "tips" I've seen before, and they're honestly awful. Just another way for little thirteen and fourteen year olds to "get anorexia".

In response to that the anonymous responded ^^^^

Hi Charlie, it's the same anonymous...I see what you're saying, I probably should have been more clear with my post...though I'd appreciate if you didn't call me stupid - I've had anorexia since I was twelve and it's hell and I know the variety of reasons behind. I think it's probably different for everyone and sterotyping isn't going to help anyone so I'm just pointing out how can, not always, but can affect people. I'm scared of food and I'm scared of calories - just because an apple has about 50 calories in it doesn't stop me being scared and thus that fear leads, for me, to hate. And yeh, you are right - anorexia has deeper roots, it's a way of being in control, being the "best" - that's why it's a mental illness. Hope you are ok x

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I truly hope that you guys don't stop reading my blog because of the inaccuracies of that post. If you prefer upon your request i will remove the previous post so know one gets wrong information. Once again, I'm sorry, i didn't mean to spark such a heated topic.

Love Riki Ana